Tonight is church and we always have corporate prayer on the first Wednesday of the month. My thought today would be, why does it seem like I have no problem praying at church? I have the worst time praying at home. I’m not talking about finding the time. I’m talking about finding the words to say. When I’m praying at church, I find all the words to say. I can even have a conversation with God like I am talking to you now. But when I’m at home, I start with a few words. Then my mind goes blank. It really bothers me. It’s not like I don’t want to pray I just can’t seem to think of what to say.

Sometimes I wonder if it is because of the corporate prayer. There is just something about praying in a group that seems to be magical. Sometimes you can just listen and it’s not that you are being nosy trying to listen to someone else prayer. But you hear someone really crying out to God. You can’t hear the words clearly. Yet, you can hear the desperation and the travailing. That always speaks to my soul. I usually join that person in prayer. I ask God to supply whatever need they have in their life at that time.

I recently had the chance to just sit a listen to my father pray and it really touched my heart. My parents attend a decent size church. My dad prays for each individual in that church every day. He calls out their name before God. One time I even heard him ask a new attendee their name. He wanted to pray for them daily. My dad is a walking miracle. A few years ago, he had a stroke and heart attack at the same time. We thought we had lost him. But with time, rehab, and prayer he almost fully recovered. I have never seen a stroke victim recover as much as he has and I thank God for that.

Prayer is an important part of your walk with God. I guess I wish I had the problem most people have, which is not having enough time. I live alone and have all the time in the world but just not the words. I don’t want to spend all my time asking Him to do stuff for me. Praising at home seems so hollow for some reason.